like sand through our fingers, they just slip away.

I feel that memories will always haunt us. be it that they are good memories, or bad memories. we cannot escape our past mistakes and decisions. I guess thats just fine, and just one of those things about life that we all will cross. but I feel we have to remember for the right reasons. not to look back and say "I wish I could go back to that time," but rather to look back and say "that was a different time, and I learned something from it."

The time is now, and not then. I know I had some good times, and I know I will have more good times. there is just no time of knowing when and where they will happen. I suppose that is what makes life beautiful, not knowing.

we can choose to remember, or we can choose to forget. in the end, its best to move on, and look back and say "I did my best."

I guess.

summer of 09

Im not sure if anyone will end up reading this. I might just keep this as somewhere of personal reflection, or just a good place to jot down a few thoughts about my ever expanding knowledge of the world and my surroundings.

lately it seems that with the economy in the shape that it is, and all the other problems surfacing around the world, it has become more and more difficult to just sit back and enjoy our surroundings. I long for the feeling of no, or at least little stresses in life. But i guess that that time of life has passed. 22 years old doesn't seem that old, but i feel it. I know that there is a lot for me to still learn and experience. All of these new thoughts and understandings are still new to me. quite frankly, they are very scary. seems that i can no longer make the same decesions that I could when i was 17 or 18.  now the choices and paths that I will be choosing will affect me for the long run.

School

Friends

Money

Health

Family

Love

All these things are becoming more and more apparently real to me. This blog, these thoughts, are all the start of the rest of my life. learning how to deal with my problems, rather then push them aside is something that I know I have to work on.

I guess I'm just scared.