summer of 09

Im not sure if anyone will end up reading this. I might just keep this as somewhere of personal reflection, or just a good place to jot down a few thoughts about my ever expanding knowledge of the world and my surroundings.

lately it seems that with the economy in the shape that it is, and all the other problems surfacing around the world, it has become more and more difficult to just sit back and enjoy our surroundings. I long for the feeling of no, or at least little stresses in life. But i guess that that time of life has passed. 22 years old doesn't seem that old, but i feel it. I know that there is a lot for me to still learn and experience. All of these new thoughts and understandings are still new to me. quite frankly, they are very scary. seems that i can no longer make the same decesions that I could when i was 17 or 18.  now the choices and paths that I will be choosing will affect me for the long run.

School

Friends

Money

Health

Family

Love

All these things are becoming more and more apparently real to me. This blog, these thoughts, are all the start of the rest of my life. learning how to deal with my problems, rather then push them aside is something that I know I have to work on.

I guess I'm just scared.